Missin' someone

After a busy and a noisy second, you found yourself sitting in one corner, enjoying the solitude of bein' alone. All of a sudden you found yourself thinkin' of someone. Someone that you know and you value so much and you realized that in that second you managed to forget him, totally. It's not that you want to forget that person, it's just that knowing that you miss him that much and you can't even do somethin' about it makes it more miserable, right? and your like making that the reason why you don't wanna think about more. It was a temporary relieve of loneliness.

I mean, yeah. He spent his summer with his family at Dubai and it was just, say like... 3 long months of not seeing him. During that time when we talk over the net, all I did was bark at him. Pretty wierd 'cause I miss him so much and yet all I did was like quarrel at him, but he never quarrel-back at me 'cause he knew why I was like that.

Now, that his back at the city, I still can't see him. WTF!!! This is really not killing me.

At first, I was like fine with him bein' at Dubai and not seeing each other but now, it's a different story. We are in the same and his place is like the next place to ours but what's most awfully is still we can't see each other. HUHU.

Bittersweet circumstances in life that we can't do anything about. Still I linger... waiting.

Cause I was left behind and was so bored..

May 16th. The day was scheduled to be a Team GA/outing. It was planned that the team would go to the beach to chill for a day.

The day started well. I packed my things, a couple of clothes to wet, a towel and all those stuff. I was really excited that I had woke up ahead of everyone just to pack my thing and go. Everyone was still on bed, but all of a sudden, my mom got up from bed, went downstairs and told me that I have to stay home 'cause no one would be there to watch over it blah blah. I was like why? Aren't you gonna be here? are you goin' some place else? My mom said they were gonna go to "carmen". Her place, I mean, where she came from. We usually go there on the 15th of May and I should've known better that they were goin'. -sighs- I was stuck at home. Me and my sis were thinkin' that this was unfair. My sis was also left behind 'cause she had summer classes. Me and my sis were thinkin' of things to do to start the day. We did chores and the like in the morning but after lunch, again, we got fed up with the silence. So, I decided to get my PS2. hehehe. I bid it on line and got it for 5k ^_^ hehe. Lucky me. I fetched the console then after which, set it up and had a blast. They were out of town for 4days and 3nights and during those times, all we did at home was play and play the thing. Lazy as it may sound but, really, all we did was sit and play. Eat and poo. Sleep and play the whole time. hahaha

The next day, We, me and my sis, stormed the nearest mall to get some CDs. We found a shop and spent the whole morning there. We were picking out CDs and had to try them out, of course, if t'would work but, unfortunately, the lot of there CDs didn't play or the console wasn't able to read it for some reasons. Got tired, hungry and fed up with the pissed sales lady, I was just like OK, we'll take those even though we haven't tried 'em. We ended up at around 12noon. We went home and tried the CDs. Unfortunately, the CDs didn't play or whatever, as expected. CRAP!!! I had to go back to shop and exchanged it for other ones. I had to talk to the lady in charge. Told her that the CDs didn't play. She accepted it and exchanged it. I went home, tried the CDs. One of which played or went on fine but the other one would stuck up after sometime. I didn't go back to the shop. Duhh!!. They're just gonna replace it with the same crappy one's so, nevermind.

But still I had loads of fun with my new PS2. Weeeeeeeeeeee!!! ^_^

Unexpected "How are you?"s

After a tiresome 2hr extended overtime, I headed to ayala to grabe something to eat. I had shawarma, my favorite. Chilly. Stopped by the istore to buy a protector for my ipod. Then, went to the hospital to visit someone.

It was around 8pm when I reached the hospital gates. The hospital was the place were we use to go on duty, duty school duty blah blah. I roamed the place hoping that I'd see one of my former classmates. I went to the OB-Gyne hoping they would be there but they weren't. Though there were students of the same uniform but they didn't look familiar to me. I gave up. Sat myself in the lobby waiting for my friend to come. He came a few moments later then we went to the floor or should I say room to where we're suppose to be. When I was about to enter the room, I noticed a band of students that were wearing the UC duty uniform and to my surprise, I saw my ex-classmates. Haha.
They were like, "Hey Ian wassup?" "How's it been?" "What're you doin' here?" "Who are you with?" "Who are you visiting?" etc. I said I was visiting someone in the other room, then they dragged me in and we chatted. My my my, things do really happen unexpectedly. I ended up sleeping late and exhausted. -sighs-. I didn't even had dinner that time and it was already around 10pm, running 11pm. My tummy was already having a noise-barrage. I got home around 12pm, looking groggy and hagard. ^_^

cia0

A Hell of a Coincidence eEeEkk!!!

I went out to see ,or more likely, meet someone who's been asking to meet me for quite sometime, not that I'm bragging or whatever but that was just how the situation went on. Anyways, so we met and chatted for couple of minutes and then his phone beeped. It was an unregistered number on his phone and the text said that "can we meet up? I'll bring my wheels" or something like that. Then he asked me that if I could stay a little while just until the guy comes over and I was like okay. After all I had nothing to do and I was on my way home.

So, did came his "textmate". We introduced each other. This and That, you know the basics of introducing yourself. So, we talked for a little time ,the three of us, and got to the issue of Exs' and relationships etc. I asked the guy if he was taken or attached to someone as of the moment, then he said no. "My last relationship ended last March. We lasted for 4 months time only" he said. I asked for the name, at first, he hesitated in saying out the name but then later on, I got him to say the name and when he said the name, he said the name of my partner. Shit!!! I was like, are you kidding me??? What the fuck!!! So, you're my BF's ex? Shit!!!. I had all those things on my mind. Talking to myself. I was like evaluting the guy. His looks, attitude and everything else. He was nice. He sounded a bit shy maybe that was because we just met or whatever. But in general, the guy was really nice, polite and etc. But the fact that he was my BF's ex was really like out of this world. Of all the possibilities and of all the people that I would have met. I met my BF's ex. Funny, wierd, freaky and whatever. Everything was pretty mixed up.

The three of us parted ways after the little chit chat and funny thing was that he drove us home. (^_^) cause we were goin' the same way then he offered that he'll give us a ride. When I got home, I was distinctly grinning and smirking all over the place., hehehehe.

a day with only 50+php on my pocket

It's the 14th of the month of April. A day before Payday but most probably money will be out by, say... around 10 this eve. Well, I sure do hope so that money will be out by that time cause I'm so out of money. I'm broke. I'm pobre, wahahaha.

Well, my day started out around 4am. I woke up, took a bath and then took off for work. I used what was left of my coins for my fare. Then came to work without breakfast. Huhu. My tummy was grumbling the whole time. Then I had my 1st break and then bought chips with my 50php. What was left was 22php. I went back and munched on my chips. 22php is good enough for my fare, but I still had lunch and my 2nd break. I was like, ok no lunch for me now. huhu. Poor Ian. Lunch came, still I went to the cafeteria bought half serving of rice then what happened was that, I took a part from everyone's dish and there you go. I had lunch. Haha. Survival of the fittest: the WISE shall live and DUMB shall die. Weee!!!. I'll be skipping my 2nd lunch, I think. I'll just hit the kitchen when I get home and Dig in.

Having 50php on your pockets is not much of a problem. You just simply have to be slick and wise. Haha.

ciao ^^,

Still

We ended up bad. We didn't get to talk to each other to make everything clear and formal.

We met through the net. Chatted a few times. We communicated for, say around... 2-3 weeks.

I never expected someone like him to "waste" time with someone like me. I mean for me he was so ideal. God, my dream guy if I were to say so. I tried not to get too attached to him but when he said that he liked me, though I knew that it sounded very shallow and empty that got me right on the spot. I told him right from the start that I liked him and he did say so in return that he also felt the same way. At first, I tried to restrain myself in making him feel that I was fallin'. Tried to keep everything from subtlety but we were seeing each other more often and eventually I fell for it, which became my greatest regret.

Po0of!!! He disappeared. Gone without a word. I knew that he wasn't a "text-person" but for crying out loud, I think I deserve an explaination. He could've explained himself through text. He could've told me what happened to him, why he wasn't able to send me a word for a week. And then, the next thing I knew was that he was fixing things with his ex. Crap!!!... I cursed him.

We chatted back lately and I told him that, he should've said things in the first place. Told me straight to my face that he was fixing things up with his ex that would've been fine with. I'll let go. But leaving me in the middle of everything, bewildered and wondering what happened was not cool at all.

So, I moved on with everything mixed-up in my head. I wasn't good at all, believe me. Left in ripped-apart and in shattered pieces. Funny thing, is that I still pass by the place where he works out. Still bikes around the village where he stays. Still spends time walkin' around the mall hoping I'd get to see and talk to him. And still goes on line hoping he'd send me a buzz. Well, I guess he still has me cause after all what happened, he can still manage to turn my head around whenever he passes by.

ciao ^^,

Talk about soakin' the sun

*Excited* I dunno how to start my blog. haha. Crap! Whatever... Shoot. So, here it goes. I really had a blast this summer. You know why? coz i hitted 3 beaches in just a month, I think if i'm not mistaken, yeah.

First stop was at a spring at Tuburan, somewhere north of Cebu. The place was great and the spring was huge. It looked as if it was a resort coz the place was not like uhm... "not developed" it was totally the other way around and to think that the place was a little bit hard to find. The spring was contained in concrete walls, I mean the spring was cemented but not totally the spring itself. The ground of the spring felt a bit squeshy coz like what I said, they only contained it with cemented walls blah blah blah. So, getting back. the spring was at the or was facing the white-sand beach HAHA!!! so, whenever we feel like goin' to the beach to soak up or to chill by the spring, we could always do so. I was with my officemates. We stayed there for 2days and 1night.

Next stop was Moalboal specifically at Panagsama where there were at lot of Karaoke bars, Inns, Diving "whatever"s (haha!!!)... This one's really really wierd, I mean how it happened. How I ended up at the place after a few text messages. ^_^ . A friend of mine sent a group message saying that he was at the place and was askin' if someone else happened to be there. Then I replied and said that you should've texted me earlier coz I've always wanted to go that place and he replied "why don't you catch up?". Told him that I can't coz it was the last day of my day off from work.Then he said, teasing me that, "come on, all you have to pay for is your fare back and forth and that's it. I'll take care fo your food and accommodation" and then i was like wo0oh, are you sure? and he said, yeah. Well then, ok. I'll settle for that. That's fair enough. And then after which, I was at the terminal and then 2hrs after, I was there. Arrived at around 6 or 7pm. I stayed there for... hmmm 4days and 3nights. I think, hehehe. Forgot. The place was like "mini" boracay. They had there stalls that sold souvenirs, shells and the like. The place also had bars and, of course, "Mariposa"s that were hooking up with foreigners coz the place was flooded with white people. Hay!!! (sighs) but nevertheless, I did'nt let that ruin my stay. On my last day, we went to the place they called "Basdaku".
The place was filled with city-people trying to enjoy the beach as I was too. The sunset was B.E.A.utiful, thought the sun was burnin' hot before that but it was worth the wait and heat.

Last stop, "Taboylan". I dunno if that's how it's spelled. LoLz. Yeah, My color was really showing up. haha. Turning coffee brown. Wahahaha. This happened coz my couz and his from HK went here for vacation. So, my couz shouldered the rent for the rooms and the rest of the expenses were shared. Like most beaches, it was hot at noon at which time, as well, the tide was high. Crap! We couldn't get near the water coz it was too hot. What we did was, when clouds would pass by and block up the sun, where rush ourselves in the the water, then by the time the shade had already pass by we'd cover ourselves with monoblock chairs. Hehehe. Pretty funny coz we had to drag plastic chairs just to cover ourselves from the heat of the sun. And of all the things that can be used to cover the sun, we used chairs. Haha. How clever... ^_^ . It was quite nice to know that the whole compound got together again after a few years. Coz the compound usually go out on summer outings inmost cases to the beach but that was a few years ago like almost five yeard from now, I guess. It was a nice get-together.

Me, bein' a travelbee really enjoyed my summer hehehe. Looking forward to another summer like this. Hmmmm, What could other nice summer destinations??? Hit me if you know a few, will you? Tnx.

Ciao ^^,